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  • July 11, 2014 - Reflections

    By Jean S. Horner
    The other day while walking down a corridor in a public building, I saw what appeared to be someone walking toward me. On coming closer, I found it was my own reflection in a huge mirror. For a moment it frightened me. Somehow a full-length reflection of one’s self is a startling thing. ...


 

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November 21, 2011 - A New Song

By Hilda Schnell

The day is etched in my memory forever. A woman on the homeward-bound commuter train was silently crying. She didn’t stop after a few minutes, as one might expect. Her tears seemed to flow in an endless stream. No sense of shame hovered about her, but a dark despair threatened to swallow her alive.

Unbelievably, I was that woman 11 years ago. Held prisoner by an undiagnosed mental illness, I sat on the train feeling that my life was utterly meaningless. I was contemplating suicide.

How was it possible that a child of God, saved by His grace, could sink this low? I had a responsible job. A wonderful family was waiting for me at home. What was wrong with me?

Two months later, I landed in a psychiatric ward for the third time in seven years. My life, as I had known it, was over—never to be the same again. The diagnosis? Bipolar affective disorder, better known to some as manic-depressive illness.

To be sure, the road to recovery has been long and painful. Without God’s tender care, I lacked the courage to take even one step. When I couldn’t concentrate enough to read Scripture or pray, family and friends stood in the gap for me.

In His great mercy, God has healed me! My mind is clear. I no longer need medication to stabilize my moods. Throughout this difficult journey, God has turned to me and heard my many cries. He has lifted me out of the pit of despair that held me in its iron grip. He has set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song, a hymn of praise to our God. (See Psalm 40:1-3.)

Our awesome God has no equal (Exodus 15:11). The words of Frances R. Havergal’s timeless hymn “Like a River Glorious” say it best: “We may trust Him fully all for us to do; they who trust Him wholly find Him wholly true.”

— Hilda Schnell, a freelance copy editor and writer, lives in Cambridge, Ontario, Canada, with her husband and son.

 

 

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